Restless VS Refreshed.
Start my post here.....how many nights have I laid my head on this pillow and wished for a long slumber. Too many. How many nights have I gone to Laney's room and watched her sleep because I can't? Too many. How many nights have you laid here and talked to Jesus? Not enough. I say this because of all the restless nights and sleepless nights. I should dig a little deeper and seek him in all the restlessness.
I find myself these days tired and restless. I was talking to Shiann the other morning on the phone and she asked me a vital question..." how long has it been since you have been to church?" too long, I replied. I know some of you reading this may not sit in a church pew every Sunday, which is okay, but for my sanity, I have to be on a bench looking at the cross and remembering he endured so much more than I am enduring now. It's these trials that create endurance and perseverance. Adjusting to a new life has been more complicated than I thought. I still feel the hurt from leaving my roots. I long for my patio. Today, I talked with a friend who told me the difference between a porch and a patio. So now I am pretty sure I had a patio. Lol, thanks, friend. I miss the sound of crickets and seeing lightning bugs. Now, I must remind myself of the positives of moving... I have a job, a paycheck, and a house to come home to. But most importantly, God is with us on this journey.
Next, the last few weeks have been incredibly tough. My grandmother left this world just over two weeks ago. She has been home for two weeks in her new mansion, and last night Laney thanked Jesus for her Grandma Sally during the dinner prayer. So precious and challenging all at the same time. I wrote a speech for her funeral, and the preacher read it to the congregation. She inspired me to dream and was there for me during my younger years. She was funny and beautiful. I was the last person to see her before she passed. One of the hardest goodbyes I have ever said. She was my person.
If you came by to catch up, this just sums it up. Arkansas is fine... I miss what we left behind, but God is near, and he is pushing us in a forward direction. I have made three friends in the neighborhood, Lisa, Erin, and Jeanne, so there is progress. Shiann and I still play phone tag regularly, and we get it right once a week. Laney is doing excellent and poor DJ has to put up with us... But he has been beginning to build stuff, so maybe one of these days, I will post an item and see just how fast it sells.
I currently am out of Bible study groups and missing it terribly. So I ask you to pray that I find a study to start or leave me a message of one your enjoying. I need you just like you needed to read my blog.