Gypsy

Oh, how I absolutely love "Gypsy" by Fleetwood Mac. To the Gypsy that remains, her face says freedom with a little fear. I have no fear, have only love and if I was a child and the child was enough for me to love...

I feel like this song sometimes... sometimes, I am just dancing away, and then memories are all that is left for me to think about. I think about the memories. I think about the freedom I once felt until life came crashing down like lightning, that never strikes the same place, except it struck the same place twice my heart. I can still see you, and I think about the memories. I think about the weekends and the fun. I know God had something more than you for me. He gave me a light in the darkness. Someone to teach me about the gypsy soul I had at the time. Life has a funny way of showing you freedom, but it is not the freedom you need. You need love, patience, and a balance. I found my balance. I found my peace. I found my love. When you left this world on that night, it was hard. It was painful. It was devasting. I know you are in a better place and seeing me thrive in life. But man, sometimes I wish I could call you up and laugh. I wish you could see my girl. You made me love the song, "When I see you smile." I still remember the night you taught me how to drive a stick shift in the middle of a rainstorm. I remember everything, and sometimes the memories make me feel better. Christina would agree you made road trips fun. You were her leprechaun. I can't believe it's been over 18 years since I saw you. The pain you feel after a loss like you never goes away. It just leaves a scar on your heart, and I know I'll see you one day.