Change with Obedience
This is a brand new season and a brand new day. As I start this post, I am sitting at my round table staring at the words, " Fall is proof that change is beautiful.' Change and obedience are two topics that are headlining my life today. Over a year and a half, my life has flipped and flopped until I am unsure what direction life is going. I have started a new bible study with my friend Amanda called "Discerning the Voice of God" by Pricilla Shirer. After one week in, I must say my heart is asking questions, and I hear God saying, "It will be alright." This past week I ended a chapter, and I know God is calling me to be obedient to him in this new season. I have never been one to give up on my ambitions, but what if God calls me to pursue new dreams. Up until our life was shaken by the reminisces of COVID and job loss, my family was living a pretty steady life. Vacations were being taken, and the bank account looked fantastic, and I will be completely transparent, now neither of these are happening. Is this the calling of change with obedience? The title of Day four: The Time to Respond to God's Voice. Reading these words shook me to the core of my innermost being. I know God, I should use the time you give me to seek your word and trust you more. As I read these words, "Sometimes the biggest moves of God have wrapped up the smallest assignment of God."
I feel as if Pricilla is sitting at my table telling me to start the blog." The most straightforward act of sharing Jesus is obedience. For the last few months, I have wondered, is this really what God calls me to do, DOWNSIZE? But God, we have downsized so much already, we sold the house, I stepped into a transition blind, and it didn't work out, and now I am sitting here again asking, "God, what happens now?" I am obedient to your calling, and yet I am still finding myself struggling and hurting. Last night at bible study, I was reminded that God never said life was a walk in the park after deciding to follow him. My friend Kelly said, "when you are saved, and you make the decision to follow Christ, a person should warn you." So true!!! Kelly. God calls us to the hard, the unknown, and discipleship.